I had a difficult day. Its noone, or nothing, just that the impending conflict between my value system and my work has finally starting making itself visible. Its not a conflict on ethics or integrity, but one on dreams and freedom.
I've dreamt my whole life....I've dreamt of stars...of staying awake all night....staying awake all night running across the horizon...running across the horizon trying to catch stars....precious, shining stars.
My dreams aren't crushed, just pressed down.
I'm off to bed......and hope that tomorrow some of these will shout out and overwhelm everything else