There’s a strange sense of confidence that is taking over me.
I’m at the Admiral’s club at Chicago, on my way back from Boston, to Delhi. I usually like waddling around the airport but my eyes needed rest. I lost my glasses and my contact lenses can take me only so far. Hence, I’m blurry eyed while lenses soak up some moisture in their little case. Given the life I have come to live, a temporarily limited vision is soothing. For some time, I can’t see too well, the movement around me. Despite the sound, I feel alone, and peaceful. Opportune for writing ;)
The last few months have been very significant for me. I have worked harder than ever, and almost selflessly. My client is in the U.S, so at my peak, I have done three return trips in one month. I have worked 23 hours on more than just a few days. I have seen Peepu less than 3 days this month. All this, with no apparent benefit in sight, but then also no need for benefit. I’m highly self-inspired at this stage, with no clarity on what I want out of future but relentless effort to keep the juices flowing.
I spent some beautiful days in Boston, including some magical weekends of sunshine, heavy reading and conversations with myself. As I spend time alone happily, I inspire myself further, as I increasingly find my own company fantastic. Of course, I have met friends on the way too- like running in to Rahim at Chicago airport, or momentarily re-connecting with an old love through a chance meeting at Brussels, or sharing Wine and calamari with Rachana and Amrita at Newbury street, or just this morning, walking down Cambridge, along the river, again with Amrita. But even in all these, there’s been an increasing amount of connect with my own self too.
And back home, things have been amazing fun. The more we stay apart, the better our times together are. Of course this can’t happen indefinitely but we know it won’t. Earlier this month, when I returned from the States, we spent an fun weekend in Delhi itself- doing nothing but chilling like the old times, running from bar to restaurant chasing chilled beer and coastal food and crappy movies. We spent last weekend (Saturday and Satur-night- since I flew out on Sunday) in Goa. It was with the family this time- with the Parents, Vani and Nobbie. The weather sucked but between the world cup semi-final (remember, I flew out and missed the final), Goan pork sausages and more beer, we were a happy set.
The other thing I have seen a lot of in the last few months is old friends. School friends, flatmates, old love, past flings, mentors and more! It’s brilliant what time can do. It makes me love my life! And for most of it, I want to keep these connections alive because they matter- if not in their old form, definitely in their new form.
I guess this is a safe place to say I’ve reached my equilibrium. I’m, at a comfortable pace, making my goals happen and developing newer targets. I don’t want to touch this any further!
The music is Amelie